Someday we'll know

Ever had times where you lost all directions,
Juz floating aimlessly,
Like a piece of driftwood,
Not knowing where waves will sweep you to,
Fretting and worrying,
About your destination,
About the final outcome,
Imagining all the possible outcomes,
And telling yourself,
That you wont end up happy,
Coz you dont think you deserve any happiness,
But concurrently wishing,
Juz wishing,
With all your heart,
That the outcome will be a happy one,
That you will find happiness,
That your dream will come true?
I'm currently not as lost as i was before.
I am currently seeing things in past, present and future,
Neatly compartmentalized.
I know who belongs to the Past,
Who are in my Present,
And who i want in my Future.
How much clearer can i get?
Right now, my mum's fretting over me,
Like a lil' kid,
Juz coz i'm a lil' ill,
And i'm loving every minute of it.
Seriously,
Sometimes i think that guys do too much fretting and pampering,
That they feel juz that little bit empty inside,
If the fretting and pampering are not reciprocated.
We do yearn to love and be loved in return,
However,
Sometimes it's not possible.
And my dad's changed a lot over the 4 days i've been away.
1st of all,
He stopped betting on soccer liaoz,
With Euro still on,
I cant believe it.
2nd,
He joined this 'Philosophy of Life' thingy,
And is now so much more contemplative,
So much more less lazy(i need this course too),
And his tutor told him not to talk for 12 hrs after the lesson,
And reflect more,
Which is what he did,
So all communication with him was in hand signs and writings.
It's pretty damn funny i tell you.
3rd,
He went to an appointment 1/2 hr early juz now.
I cant rem the time he was early for anything,
Which is so much like me(or else why would he be my dad?)
Furby is fat!
Cant believe how much he grew in the short space of 4 days.
I wonder how he can still hop around with all those fats.
Haha!!
My sis's gonna kill me for saying he's fat.
Maybe a reason is coz i wasnt around to give him his daily exercises.
(read: dangling a piece of plastic in front of him and making him chase in vain)
And chatted a bit with my two sis over lunch.
So family relations is now pretty harmonious and good,
And i'm elated about that.
I shall try not think so much about other not-so-happy stuff,
And focus on my current bliss.
And i cant seem to stop blogging,
Maybe it's some withdrawal symptom.

Someday we'll know

90 miles outside chicago
Can't stop driving
I don't know why
So many questions
I need an answer
Two years later you're still on my mind
Whatever happened to Emelia Earhart
Who holds the stars up in the sky
Is true love once in a lifetime
Did the captain of the titanic cry
Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you
Does anybody know the way to Atlantis
Or what the wind says when she cries
I'm speeding by the place that I met you
For the 97th time tonight
Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you
Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know
That I was the one for you
I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
I watched the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask god just one question
Why aren't you here with me
Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you
Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know
That I was the One for you