Fate

Ah!!!
The F word.
Was telling L the other day i'm gonna write something on it.
The next day, i was struck by the fickle nature of fate.
Allow me to explain.
I had a dream. (not the martin luther speech)
I dreamt that there was someone (not sure who exactly) throwing a dice.
The first throw of the dice revealed a face saying 3.
The next throw revealed 1.
The two subsequent throws showed up 6 and 2.
Hmm.....
Now, in my dream i vaguely remember telling myself to buy 4D with these 4 numbers.
Then i woke with a start.
Shit! i thought.
Forgot the numbers and sequence liaoz.
Better go back to sleep and try to recapture the numbers before they slip away.
Anyways, sure enough 3162 came back to me, like a phantom.
And like in the dream, i reminded myself to buy 4D.
Then the dilemma set in.
Should i buy all the permutations or should i juz buy the numbers juz as they showed themselves?
Anyway, due to financial constrains, i didnt buy all the possible permutations.
And guess what!?
3162 was in the starters, albeit in it's opposite form - 2613.
Damn!
I could have won a cool $500.
Well, i dont think that money was meant to be mine anyway.
How funny this Fate thingy is.
To lemme dream of 4 numbers and yet not let me win.
Honestly speaking, what's the possibility of randomly dreaming of 4 numbers and then subsequently having them open in a lottery?
Chances are, the possibility's very low.
So low it would take an overly-optimistic person to bet on it.
Which juz brings me to another topic.
Watched Turn Left Turn Right anyone?
There was a line in it that describes Fate as pulling the 2 characters close to each other, yet not close enough for anything special to happen between them.
After some thoughts on the subject, i did some modification to it.
It would be suicidal to rely on Fate for any favours.
A lot of times, things are in our own hands.
Do i believe in Fate?
Yes and No.
I believe that Fate can pull people close and make them accquainted.
However, Fate doe not owe us anything, to the extent of us wishing that Fate would intervene and create a miracle or a chanced meeting.
Speaking of Fate as if it's a living entity, i must add a disclaimer here.
I use Fate here not loosely, but to justify all the coincidences and to explain the accquaintance of all those people who have been a part of our lives.
Truthfully speaking, i am culpable of using Fate as an excuse to delay or not do a certain action.
Dont we all use something as transient and inexplicable as Fate or Luck to explain certain actions (or inactions for that matter), certain things that we want to do but lack the courage, certain happenings that we could introspectively attribute to as our own fault/making?
I believe that Fate creates opportunities for us to make a certain action, for us to meet someone.
But what i do not believe is that Fate could then pull us closer or deny us the chance to be closer.
I believe that creation of opportunities by Fate is not akin to making something happen.
Rather, it all boils down to us - the protagonist in our own lives, to use the opportunities that come our way, and make things happen.
Fate let two persons meet, pulls them close, yet not close enough. (True)
Fate let two persons meet, pulls them close, yet keeps them at a distance, preventing anything special from developing between them. (False)
My point here is, to reiterate, the first sentence is true coz Fate can only accquaint people. Whether these acquaintances blossom into anything more in-depth is up to the individuals concerned.
The second sentence is false if the above point is applied.
Can Fate really play a cruel hand to torn lovers and keep them seperated?
Can Fate cause a misunderstanding so great between two bossom friends that they become enemies?
Can Fate deny us our dreams and aspirations?
Some of you might disagree with me that we hold destiny in our hands.
Some might agree that Fate or Luck does play a part in happenings.
Whatever it is, the reason why you are reading this right now is due to Fate or your own choice?